Thursday, July 27, 2006

Scrapper's Block? or in love?

So lately I haven't been scrapbooking...or making cards...or doing anything creative whatsoever. And on top of that I haven't had a sudden urge to do so. I mean I want to, but then I don't want to. Lately I've just been in a reflective mood. I guess it is partly due to the fact I'm going through withdrawals because I haven't really talked to my best friend in 3 days. I'm working 12-13 hours during the day and he's working graveyards for 2 weeks. So by the time I'm getting off work, he's going to work. I miss him beyond all reason. Which brings me to the next part of the title. Am I falling in love with him all over again???? I realize that I'm the happiest when things are going really well between us (not that it ever isn't). I love talking to him. I LOVE the fact that he knows me better than God (ok so not really, but he comes in a close 2nd :-D ) It got so bad yesterday I wrote him a letter in my journal. All the things that I've wanted to tell him but just haven't. I know that he has feelings for me...and I have feelings for him...but we never talk about it. It's like I can't. It's like once we start talking about it we're taking that step to the next level and I think both of us are slightly scared about it.

So bottom line: missing him definitly messes up my creative groove

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